jesus fuck why is everyone being such a asshole today

so i will probably fail my final art history exam, i couldnt tell you how disappointing i am

from all the things, from all the subjects i never thought i would lose interest in the history of art

it frightens me that i couldnt care less about it
have i really come to this point where even the things im passionate about loose my interest what have i become this is scary this is so scary im so afraid of loosing it again 

but then theres him and he makes everything alright and somehow i can say things like ok whatever its just an exam, i cant believe how someone can reassure me so much. it is so scary how much i love him and how he puts effort into making me feel better this is the happiest ive ever been in my life so far.
not that the sadness has gone away, but its different 

lol i seriously dont know why i bother people telling how i feel
god im never doing this again i will just throw up my sadness
fuck this

modernperv:

is it bad that I care more about animals being killed than people being killed

night peeps 

i never understood
what made your lips on my neck
such an intimate affair
until your teeth grazed my pulse
and i realized 
you could tear open my throat
and make me bleed out in your arms
but instead
you chose to kiss

ive been feeling so so tired and im exhausted and its going downhill so much 

i might have another panic attack coming up, im shaking and i think im going to throw up 

i feel so bad i wish i could talk to someone 

wtf did i do to myself

only death can release me from this 

kill yourself WHY DONT YOU KILL YOURSELF WHY DONT YOU PICK UP THAT KNIFE AND CUT YOUR WRITS OPEN AND TAKE 50 PAINKILLERS BECAUSE HONEY ITS NOT GOING TO GET BETTER ITS BAD YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF KILL YOURSELF WHY DONT YOU KILL YOURSELF  NOBODY WANTS YOU HERE KILL YOURSELF YOU UGLY FAT SLUT NOBODY LIKES YOU KILL YOURSELF FUCKING SLUT KILL YOURSELF